This and That

I started this blog weeks and weeks ago, and haven't even updated it! I haven't designed it or anything because I rarely get on the computer. I need to do that though. I have had plenty to write, just not as much time.
 

We always seem to have something going on, then on the weekends when we finally have some down time, I like to be lazy! Although that rarely happens because I always find something I could be doing. Gavin starts school this week!! His big meeting is tomorrow. There, we will find out who his teacher will be, etc. I am so excited for him. Whenever we go to the school for Kellen, Gavin throws a fit when we have to leave. He LOVES to learn and is such a problem solver. He loves being involved so much. He is going to love school just like Kellen.
 

It's funny because on my Facebook my cousin Lisha said, "You're really going to freak when they graduate" it made me smile and get to thinking....originally it was my plan to have more kids. Gavin wasn't planned, but we knew we wanted more and weren't complete after Kellen was born. Gavin was a surprise, yet couldn't have been born at the more perfect time. When Kellen was born, as much as I thought it would be impossible to love another child as much as I did him, Gavin pretty much completed me. When Kellen was born, I didn't have the sense of completion like I do now that I have them both. I probably won't have anymore kids unless I change my mind in the distant future. So, my point being, I got to thinking about what she said. As sad as it is not to have the little babies anymore (I LOVE BABIES), it isn't sad to me to see them grow. It is kind of like turning the page to a new chapter in a book. They are getting older, starting school, learning, growing and experiencing new things, and at the same time, so am I. It's funny how timing works, because I would not change the timing of having the boys for anything in the world. We have spent the last 4 1/2 years together, now they are both going to school and I am doing things for me at the same time. I am so thankful to have had the boys when I did. I am still young and can accomplish SO much, all the while I get to watch and help them grow into beautiful people. I think that their age gap is perfect too, which is another reason I don't think I will have anymore children.
 

Kellen is doing amazing too. He loves school and is learning a ton! His new favorite game to play is Angry Birds. The kid is so smart, he figures out things we wouldn't have even THOUGHT to teach him. I am SO excited to see what he thinks of Gavin getting to go to school with him.
 

Joe is loving his new promotion as a LT! He doesn't have holidays off anymore, but he is able to take them if nobody else has requested leave and he got Thanksgiving off!  So we will be taking the boys up to Prescott to celebrate Gavin's birthday and Thanksgiving! My mom is making a lot of the dinner, while I am making a ton of desserts. I know that it is extremely unnecessary to make so much dessert, but I keep running in to darn ideas and don't want to omit any of them haha! So I think I will be giving a lot away :-) I am excited because I absolutely LOVE Thanksgiving.



Changes

Those of you who know me well, know I like to write.  If I have something on my mind, no matter what the mood, I always feel a sense of relief when I write it.  Sometimes I will have so much of one subject on my mind, that I feel like I will burst if I don't put it into writing (aaaand usually it's politics).  In my personal opinion, writing is not about other people, but about yourself.  Whenever I write, it wouldn't matter if 100 people read it, or 1 person read it, because I always feel great.  SO, a while back I had a personal blog, but then I deleted it.  Big mistake deleting it, because I probably could've made a book the size of a dictionary by now :-)  So here I go again.  A blog for me.  Would be more than happy for you to read my thoughts, and if not, I am still more than happy to have made another.

 

What month are we in again?  Oh, that's right, October.  I always forget!  Well "October" has been a very exciting month.  At the beginning of the month I had a strange thing happen.  I was going about my daily routine (which is very busy), when I had an epiphany.  I have had the exact same thing happen countless times.  I have dreamt of all of these goals and always said, "One day I am going to do this.  One day I am going to do that"  Obviously they weren't far-out goals, like "own a mansion" haha.  They were legit, realistic goals that to ME seemed like.....ehh, I am sure I could do that one day.  This time was different.  One day a few weeks back, I started thinking about the future.  10 years from now....20 years, even 30 years.  I decided that I need to put one foot forward.  Not just talk about my goals, not tell anyone what I wanted to do one day, but actually do them..

 

I started out with goal number one.  I was so dead-set on achieving this goal, that was ALL I focused on.  It took me a week.  I achieved the goal.  You should have seen me.  I looked like a cast member of the Walking Dead that entire week, because ALL I focused on was my first goal.  It was achieved.  Done.  Just like that.  Because my mindset changed out of nowhere....and I pushed myself to do what I wanted.  Not for anyone but ME.  I woke up with motivation every single day, and went to bed with satisfaction.

 

Now, obviously once you decide to do something and ACCOMPLISH it, you will then understand why you can do anything.  Yes, YOU....YOU can do anything.  After that day, it was no longer talk for me.  It's so funny how I am still where I was two weeks ago, but have bettered myself completely.  My mindset is completely different.  I have seen people with talent throw it away.  I have seen strangers accomplish their goals.  All of these people have inspired me.  The ones I want to be like, and the ones I don't want to be like.  It's funny because as hard as it is to believe, the people we strive not to be like, are the ones who can push us the hardest in our own minds.  Both good and bad role models.

 

So, this month has been amazing so far.  And I am even more excited about things that are happening at the end of this month for me!!  More goals to be achieved :-)  I have decided that's what purpose will be.  Well, that and my AMAZING kids!  It may take a while.  This isn't about losing some weight or seeing if I can collect a wad of cash within a few months, these are goals that I can achieve to better my future.

 

Thank you for listening to my jibber jabber.  Sorry that my blog is not fancy and creative yet.  I am SO bad at that type of thing!  But the main part is, I write what I want to write.  I don't mind if it doesn't look A-list :-)   More to come soon, I'm sure.